Where has my HOH gone?

Tim has been working a new job for the last month. After 6 years at the same place, this is a change for our family. He had been searching for a move that would allow him more time with the family. As a DD wife, I am here to say, “my HOH is missing”. He has disappeared from the homefront. This new job, although, not anymore time consuming than his last position, is just as busy. The very small, disobediant part of me, wants to stomp her feet, tell him that I will not behave unless he comes home sooner, and refuse to wash the dishes! However tempting at times this seems, I am sure he would find an hour out of his very busy schedule to deal with that attitude.
I love him so much that it hurts. Sometimes I think I have seperation anxiety from him.
So the boys and I have been doing everything we can think of to keep busy so that we do not realize that he is gone so much. Last night, my older one cried and cried because Daddy wasn’t coming home before bed. It was awful. I was sick, the boys were upset and I just wanted my hubby to be home. 😦
Everyday, I hope that his schedule will get a little bit easier. For now though, we are trying to hang in there and push through.

My Challenge

I had been on a role of good behavior and out of nowhere came a something to trip me up. It tripped me. I was a guilty, emotional wreck. After being grounded and many spankings I was back on track. Sore, but back on track. I know we all make mistakes and sometimes the cleansing is good for us. But I am planning on going quite awhile without getting punished again.

We have been super busy too. Tim is searching for a new job, I am swamped with the boys and the daycare and tim’s mom spent three weeks in the hospital. Life has been crazy buay as always. However, we are blessed and life is good.

crazy life

My challenge is going strong! I am just over two months into it. My mother-in-law ia finally home from the hospital after 3 weeks. I have been trying to organize my student loans and Tim is taking over the finances. And I have been switching meds, see why i am having a crazy life lately. I want to blog more, but getting on the computer is a huge challenge! Hope to be back soon.

My Birthday

Hey everyone. I have a lot to say.  I am so thankful to everyone who has been reading my blog.  I need to get better at posting.  I try to write blogs on my phone and sometimes my phone messes up.  Getting on the computer can be challenging with little kids.  Anyway, today is my birthday! Yay!

Last night, I received a pretty hard maintenance.  I was out of sorts all day.  Snapping here and sassing there.  And the odd thing is, I knew I was in a funk and when my HoH would correct me, I would shape up for awhile, then back into the same ruts.

Come bedtime, I knew I would receive maintenance.  T always gives me maintenance when I am approaching the LINE!  As I was bent over the bed, I was trying to focus on getting back in shape and staying submissive, but my mind kept going back to, “I don’t want to be spanked the night before my birthday.”  One time, I even considered telling T that through my sobs, but I thought he would tell me differently.  Moral of the story is:  Maintenance is no fun, but I am in a better place today.  I guess I am glad it was last night and not today.  Wish me luck on my challenge!


I am 20 days Punishment Spanking Free!  YAY! I am planning to work extremely hard, so I do not approach the line again.  Thank you again readers. It means a lot. 


If anyone has ideas for a post, let me know.  I love to write, I just find it challenging to make the time. Yet I make time for laundry…who knew. Blah!

Ramblings about discipline, sleep, and making love.

Dear Reader,
It is 8 am and I have been awake since 6:30. I also woke up twice to use the potty and once when my hubby kissed me. I am sure I am not alone in saying that I am tired. I have two little boys. I also have four daycare kids. The kids are playing well right now and I should be cleaning or exercising, but besides blogging I am thinking that if I ever want a good night’s sleep I must choose between discipline, making love, and sleep. In my submission, it is obviously not my choice. (And would be in complete contradiction to Stormy’s wonderful sex advice.)
Most nights, The Boss has me up until at least 12:30. Either conducting the MUCH needed maintenance or discipline. If it isn’t one of those it is surely making love.

So I appeal to ALL parents that practice DD…
How is this done?

Do you ever sleep?

Am I forever to be well- spanked, amazingly loved, and totally and utterly sleep deprived?

I will wait a moment, while you get your much needed cup of coffee.

Now that you are back, sipping your hot cup of coffee and contemplating your To-Do List. What am I going to do?

Am I destined to daydream about my bed? NO! Not bent over the side with a paddle being applied to my backside. My soft yellow blanket (with satin) and my pillow. The sun shining down on me, warming me to perfection. Even as I type, I cannot help but long for my bed. My eyelids closed, dreaming about the most amazing man in the world.

Tonight, I choose sleep. Let’s just hope that The Boss doesn’t plan on maintaining my submission.

Late fees

I paid two bills late. Not because we didn’t have the money, but because I just plain forgot
My HOH has never set a rule about the bills, but now I feel guilty for costing us late fees. Truth is that he isn’t that responsible about paying bills either, but he is improving every minute since he took his role as HoH more seriously. Now I have guilt about the bills and do not know if I should ask to be punished. I didn’t tell him about one late fee for two months. What is a submissive wife to do?

There will be longer more exciting posts once my internet is working